Woah guys… this one is sure making it under the wire eh?Â Ill tell you about our March in this post and well chat about April in next month’s installment ok?
March was a travel month for us, since we were gone 19 out of 31 days! I do plan on a blog post for you with all the travel stories but here is a breakdown of what happened:
- At the beginning of March, we had some of our closest friends, James and Lauren and their little toddler Robin, visit us at the trailer. There were our first guests here post-major renovation. There were still some things left to do but still. It felts really good to have them here.
- Next we flew up to Boston for our first wedding and first engagement session of 2016! It was a really short trip and also last minute since theÂ wedding folksÂ planned their wedding in just three months. Check it out here: John and Michaels Cambridge Wedding. The engagement session was for another fun couple and it is here: Sabrina and Steve!
- We came back to the beach to recoup and also to process the wedding. We also celebrated our 8 year anniversary. Woah you guys. Eight YEARS?? I cant even. Then it was off to Colorado for Meg and Nate’s Engagement session!
- Once we hugged them goodbye, Dan suggested an impromptu trip to the Grand Canyon, which was quite the adventure. Immediately following we went through a terrifying experience with a closed down Denver airport and a wedding to get to in Rhode Island. Not cool snowstorm… not cool.
- We made it to Rhode Island with a day to spare so we went up to Maine to house shop for a couple of hours. Finding nothing, we headed back to Providence for the wedding the next day. That one is coming to the blog next week yall!
- After the wedding, we then hopped a plane to Dallas TX, to spend a week in Austin leading up to a Rehearsal Dinner, a Wedding, and an Engagement Session.
THAT was our March. Whew!
New blog series! I realized I love to write when I’m on a plane so here is something I wrote Saturday in the air. There will be more as we travel more:
Im sitting on a plane, about to begin our descent into Denver and Ive been thinking about being realâ€¦ being vulnerableâ€¦ and what does that actually mean nowadays. Those are definitely buzzword phrases right? I mean vulnerability and Brene Brownâ€™s Ted Talks resonated with me so much that I watched them over and over again until they were a part of my mind. I still pop in every once and a while and re-watch, just to remind myself what the word “vulnerability” actually means, and not think of it as the empty shell word its kind of starting to become nowadays conversationally.
To meâ€¦ real vulnerability is showing that imperfect side of myself.. the side that we are supposed to kind of keep to ourselves and our spouses. Its really easy in todays world to just edit edit edit down until what we have left is an image of ourselves that we have pruned down to the cleanest most uninteresting angle.
So in that spiritâ€¦ here are some super current vulnerability points Ive got on my plate for the next week or so:
I am really really afraid of flying and we have THIS flight Iâ€™m on right now, then on to Rhode Island, then one to Texas, then one back to Raleigh. Three or four years ago it would really be no big deal but this fear of flying thing kinda hit me like a brick wall and I think about it weeks leading up to the trip and sometimes longer. Ive got a Xanex in me right now, which helps but feels like a fail to me somehow? A failure to â€śwork through itâ€ť â€śovercomeâ€ť â€śbe braveâ€ť and all that garbage. Wellâ€¦ it also feels like a win too. Thats because I just saw this problem I was having, realized that there are a lot of other things I am working on with myself and dealing with the whole fear of flying thing and digging deep to eliminate that was just not what I wanted to do at the moment soâ€¦ Xanex.
I always have at least one or two blemishes on my face literally all the time and it drives me nuts. Mostly because I donâ€™t really like wearing makeup but I also donâ€™t like seeing thoseâ€¦ imperfections. Fitting for the topic eh?
Im about to meet two clients for the first time who booked us LONG in advance and we are staying in a cabin with them in the mountains in Colorado and Im scared they wonâ€™t like us and they will think they made a huge mistake in booking us. (Update: Amazing time and we are good. I just wanted you to know that we all feel like this sometimes.)
Im really feeling complicated about how un-vulnerable I amâ€¦ and how vulnerable I want my clients to be with us. Not fair. At all.
I love you guys. Thanks for reading along and I hope this little snippet into my mind right at the moment made you feel a little better about your own behind the scenes.
Happy March you guys!!! I feel like this winter is FLYING by. Its been really mild here in the Outer Banks and we have been really getting things done here at the trailer. I think we are only a few weeks away from it really being finished. The crazy part is that other than a few larger tasks, we are actually at the decorating part! I ordered a lot of family photos at our printer today to make the place more personal. It’s kinda crazy how long Ive waited for this stage of the process. So so fun.
Other than working on the trailer like crazies this past month here are a few other things that happened:
- We went to Raleigh and got to hang out with my Sister and Brother-In-Law. I love when I get to see them, which is oddly not that often since they are uber busy working at The Escapist. <— cool eh?
- We booked tickets to NORWAY for three weeks. Yes. Know anyone who wants photos in those parts?
- My parents had to put on of our childhood pets to sleep. Love and miss you Jenkins. You were so sweet. <3
- Speaking of four legged family members, Hattie killed it with cuteness all month. Is it possible to love her more and more every single second?
- We’ve been going to the YMCA here consistantly, trying to get fit. One of the ways is swimming! Its been a long time since High School Swim team and I have a lot of relearning to do but its been fun.
- My grandpa had heart surgery, which was terrifying to think about BUT everything went smoothly. Its amazing what modern medicine can do. Truly.
Heres to MARCH!
I’ve been delaying writing this post for weeks. It’s so overwhelming to write about something you care so deeply about. I realized thatÂ unless I try and write a novel, I’m not going to be able to tell you the whole story of this post or the meaning of why its such a big big deal. Ill do my best but Im already at peace with coming up short inÂ getting the message across right here. Also… this is the short version. Yeah.
When I was in college, I went through an insanely traumatic painful ugly breakup. It took me at least 2 years to fully reach the other side and still I have scars from that to this day. The way I medicated, was to follow a band. In the span of those two years, I saw Jump Little Children 44 times. I drove all over the southeast, from Birmingham to Nashville, Atlanta to Charleston. I have friendships from this experience that I still maintain today. I even met my best friend Annie. In 2005, the band stopped touring and moved on to other things in their lives. They had been playing for together for years and for them, it was time. The Jump fans were devastated to say the least, myself included. Im not the only super fan they had. The following was intense. Many people, including members of the band(!) got married because of this little Jump family. It was a really special part of my life and I attribute my personal healing to them. Yeah… it was that serious.
Four months after they broke up, I met Dan. He had completely missed that part of my life Â (probably for the better) and for the past ten years I have had a pain, knowing that he would never know what it was like to see them live.Â I always felt that he could never truly understand why I was nuts over them unless he saw them live… and that was never going to happen… or so I thought.
This past December they played a tour and I almost lost my mind with excitement. Seriously. I know it sounds kind of over the top, (probably because it is) but I believe that Dan knows me better, having seen them. We ended up being able to go to four shows: One in Charlotte and Three in Charleston, including one on New Years Eve… another farewell. Before the Charlotte show, my first in a decade, I was almost unable to think about it. It was that beautiful to see them again that I cried much of the following day… tears of joy. I had not felt that happy in at least 3 years, due to aÂ family trauma. I missed being that happy and it was such a wonderful feeling to know that I still have it in there. It reminded me of how happy they made me back in college and how therapeutic it was then. I was shocked they still had that same power for me.
The week in Charleston was quite honestly the best week in my life. I was happy. So so very happy. I saw old and new friends. I spent time with people I care deeply about. I was in a place emotionally that I was able to appreciate this huge huge gift and not need more or feel sad because it may be the last time I see them. I could just enjoy every single second.
I am so thankful and my heart is so full… still. I cried so so much and it was that amazing kind of cry where you feel alive and happy and content. So… thank you Jump Little Children. Thank you again for doing what you do and making me so very happy.